ughh!!!

oh i can't seem to get this stupid add image thingy.
I spent the weekend and this past week trying to get the pics
uploaded but know such luck. So I will just have to wait....
So this past weekend I was at my BIL's house yippee!!
That was a lot of fun ( not really) I just don't get my
jatani One minute she's the stuck up B***** and then the next minute she's all friendly and stuff. I wish I didn't have to deal with her, rather I wish I didn't get all personal about it. She frankly doesn't give a damn about me or my family I don't know if I could be as heartless as her.
But I do have to say hats off to her acting, how she has her husband wrapped around her little finger( my mom says I should learn from her) and how she acts like she's worked so hard cooking and cleaning. Heck if I could get away with defrosting and shoving the garbage under the sofa, I'd do it too. She's such an actress she could seriously win an Oscar for her fine work.
Actually she's a con artist, the way she's cons people into thinking she's the one we should feel sorry for.
I'll explain why all this ranting and raving in my next post....

On a lighter note...

As was the purpose of this blog, I got all my frustrations out, and feeling better.
I thought I would talk about my kids, the good and the funny. Enough with the bad, I love them dearly and yes lately they have been getting on my nerves, but Insha Allah when I am old and grey, I might be getting on their last nerve, asking for this help and that. I pray to Allah that I am dependant on only Allah and not my kids.

anyway.. I went to Walmart the other day, and as soon as we walk by a bunch of walmart employees, my 6 yr old pipes " Amma I didn't steal anything today." I looked at her like WHAT!! The employees just laughed. What she meant to say was " It's not good to steal so I am not gonna steal" Well her intention was good right?

What's going on?

As you may have noticed I have not been regular in my blogging. Espescially these past few months. I could say that it was because I couldn't get time or the computer was giving problems. But the truth was that I was giving myself time. You see I started to blog coz' I just wanted to get my frustrations out and use this blog as a diary of all the daily happenings in this life of mine. But right now I am so emotionally drained that I can hardly think. Theres no me time at all. You see I am homeschooling my 6 yr old and the 3 yr old and the 1 yr old are always up my butt. I run around like a mad women trying to teach, at the same time make sure she keeps up with her quran reading and memorizing. Normally that is what goes on in most houses, but most of their kids are at school most of the time and so they get that 6 or 7 hrs away from them. So when the kids get back from school the mother is a "bit refreshed" term used loosely. So they can run behind their kids to do their HW etc. Where as I am with them 24 by 7. Constantly hearing their naggin, yelling and screaming, hair pulling and tattle telling. It has really taken a toll on me. I have told my husband about it and we will Insha Allah put them in school next year. But till then what do I do? I am totally frustrated and just plain fed up with my life. I feel under appreciated for the amount of work and effort I put in this household. My husband says to plan something for the weekend and I want him and the kids out and me home, I wanna be free. I wanna be able to use the bathroom in peace without having to hear "what r u doing in there?" or be able to comb my hair without having the kids fighting to sit in mommies lap. Am I asking too much or maybe I should just stop dreaming. The problem is I am so irritable and annoyed with the kids, all the time. HELP!!!

BTW--- As I was typing this blog I was interuppted 10 times